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holy fucking shit last night was the SHIT!
alright well first of all.. it all started out by talking to Purdizzle online.. cuz i wanted to chyll wit him cuz we havent chilled in mad long. So yea Manda was online so i was talking to her and i was like wat u doing tonight.. and she said she was going to the mall.. and i was like oh cool. So i ended up meeting her and Julie (chick from nisky<<mad cool) at the mall. Lol i rode the merry-go-round all by myself cuz they were both too pussy to me gay like me.. hehe anyway. then we went back to the park and we got alcohol and shit it was nice. lol me manda and julie loaded our stuff in three bags so we all had our shit and then we were off for the night. At first we were like wow wtf.. cuz NOBODY was out and we were like well this is quite gay. so then ME being oh so very bright as we were walkin by jakes house decided to go knock on his door to see if the turd was there.. which he was. SO! jacob was with us and we just chilled under the "pavillion" which really isnt one its just the lil roof thing the the bball courts. yeah we were all chillen there and jake stole one of my green apple smirnoffs GRR i was pissed but thats okay. lol then he was teaching me how to "down that shit" cuz hes an alcoholic and is a master at the shit ya kno. yea it was gangster. lol i was getting a lil tipsy and me and manda were spinning around in the middle of the road. lol yea so we were all there chillen for like an hour drinking it was deff mad fun. but the night was just getting started. then a lil later jr pulls up and i was drunk by then and he was with paulie and some dude i forgot his name ryan maybe?? i donno but anyway i sat in the front with the dude and jr and i was all sluring my words and shit and was mad hyper but thats how i get when im drunk. but yeah we drove to saratoga and shit and jr was all like dont leave my site chloe.. lol cuz i was drunk and they didnt want the cops to kno. he was like walk right here wit me.. i was like yes sir father. OMG! there were mad drunk people lol it was sooooo fun. Then some like 40 year old guy looked at my ass and was like "DAMN" and i didnt hear cuz i was to busy taking jakes chain or talkin to him about something i dont remember all i kno is was was near him and like facing him.. but anyway jr flipped out and like followed the guy that said it and stopped him and was yo dude do u kno how old that girl was that u just started at her ass.. and the guy was like no i dont .. and jr was like shes fucking fourteen and shes my girlfriend.. lol the lil liar well i am fourteen but not his girlfriend but i thot it was funny so i gave him a hug in front of the guy and like smiled at him. lol im a lil bitch. jr was like ur a fucking petafile and dont look at her again like that and the guy was like sry i didnt mean to offend anyone and lets call it a night. lol and then jake yelled THERAPY buddy! lol it was fun! then some lady was hittin on paulie.. lol oh god it was great. hmmm wat else. lol then we went back to park and chillen there.. lol oh they put paulie in the trunk and it looked fun so then i wanted to go in.. but they didnt drive around with me in there like they did with paulie.hmm oh then Purdy and James were driving around the park and of course purdy was drunk so we decided to chase them until he went home. lol yeah we were going like 90. OH lol on our way home from sraratoga jr was going down rt 9 goin like 115 and jake was drunk so he was mad hyper and was like screaming at the top of his lungs in my ear cuz i was right next to him! lol yea so then back in the park the cops werte called cuz we were chasing purdy and there were like 3 cops waiting for us so yea we didnt saty there. We went to malta commmunity and played on the swings and slides and shit.. lol me and jake wrestled on the big yellow slide lol it was hard lol yeah we were there for a while and then jr told nigger and jew jokes lol even tho im jewish and amandas half black... lol but its all good. Jake was telling some jokes too but they were mean they were just funny. well some of them. then we finally went back to the park at like 4:30 and just chilled in Jrs car. Me and manda alomost feel asleep but then we got our energy back by tackling jake in the back seat.. lol omg me and manda were pulling his leg hairs and i was gvin him titty twisters. lol manda was pulling his hair and shit.. then it all came to an end when had me in a head lock and had me and amanda like in werid position where we couldnt move lol .. but we got outta em and started right back up again. lol that was fun but then me manda and jake had to get outta the car vuz jr wanted to do shit with julie. so we left and let them do their thing and we all just sat outside and talked. yeah then jrs car died so we had to push it and shit and that wasnt fun.. but it was funny.. but yeah we didnt get in till like 7 in the fucking morning.. it was soooo crazy. IT was an awesome night! thanx everyone
i luv you all
Chloe*Blue
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hey there ya i was sposta go to the GE today but guess wat someone had to be a fucking asshole for a change.. so watever ill do sumthing else
yesterday i went to round lake to watch some turds ride their dirtbikes.. i really wanted to chel to come with me but noo she had some appointment she had to go to or sumthing. I miss my Chelsea! she woulda had fun cuz her favorite turd Louis Allen Howe happen to be there. She adores him just like i adore her
Yeah today i might chill with mandabutt if i can get a hold of her cuz im deff NOT doing nothing all day! :) SMILE ur on candid camera.. haha thats a funny show.
Hmm tomarrow im sposta hang out with everyone.. that means chel chris purdy louie... but i donno if i wanna.. i might just go and hang out with chel but who knows.
Then this weekend im sposta do nuthing but hangout with chris.. not too sure i wanna do that either.. i donno depends on how he is the next couple of days.
watever... we shall see wat happens
later homies
Chloe*Blue
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hey..
sry im really lazy. I need to start updating again. lol
i dont got much to say really cuz my like is just BLAH right now. I hung out with Gina and stef the other night. That was fun.. yeeeah def good times. I love Amanda Oakman.. shes my friend.. lol hehe. I miss her tho! i think im gonna live with her a week! at her aunts house or sumthing! ooo that would be tons of fun! we could go to the washington fair!! OH I LOVE FAIRS!! specailly with manda roos! heh love you hunnie!!
Anyway... i havet really done anything that intereating. I hang out with my boyfriend alot cuz hes fun to hang out with.. and i love him so its all good.
ummm my life sux.. lol theres nuttin to talk about. oh im gonna do swimming this yr.. see wat thats like i was gonna do cheerleading but then i thot about it and i was like nahh fuck that. so yeah thats wats up
Gahh nothing to say
im outta here
ill update when something exciting happens in my life.. that might be a while tho
143Chris<3
pz hommies
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Hey everyone
I'm pretty happy! Everythings looking pretty good for me. If you dont already kno.. which u all prolly do.. me and Chris are back together... yeeeup back together. We broke up for a mad long time but guess we couldnt stay apart. From words from Amanada Lyn,
"you guys are lost without each other and ur meant to be" yeaahh i guess shes right.. i donno. We spent like 30 hours straight together and he made it the most amazing time... yep Chris was nice to me. He knows wat i want from him and it looks like hes tryin.. i was a bitch to him when i got home tho cuz i was in a bad mood.. ((*sry babi*)) i felt bad.
Anywho nuff bout chris, wat else is new.. um um um. OH steph reminded me of some stuff i left outta camp that i deff need to mention cuz they were deff Kicked ass. lol first of all our counsler Christina oh who we love dearly soo much.. (not really) came to our cabins at 6 in the morning and sang:
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Way up in the sky the little birds fly
Way down in their nest the little brids rest
With a wing on the left and a wing on the right
The little birds sleep all through the night
Their SLEEEEEPING... shhhhhhh
The bright sun comes up
the dew hits the trail
WAKE UP WAKE UP
the little birds wail.
yeah she sung that as loud and as high and specky as she possibly could until we all woke up..and were outta bed. i hit her with my pillow a few times. Oh then i killed a daddy long leg and like its body was seperated from its legs but one of the legs was still twitching like all by itself.. and i FLIPPED SHIT. i was fucking screaming "WAT THE FUCK WHY IS THE LEG STILL MOVING THATS FRUCKING GROSE" yea it wasnt good. GOD BLESS MY UNDERWARE MY ONLY PAIR! lol meaghan. Lol then me, steph and meaghan all screamed at this girl we didnt like.. Dee lol cuz she was in our cabin and we all ganged up on her and were like wtf why dont u talk to us are u like too cool or somthing. Im telling u this girl like hated us or sumthing cuz like when everyone was in their cabin she would be outside on the bench by herself or with some counsler.. i think the counsler made her get off or sumthing cuz she was constantly with them. LOL! ahh i love myself.
anyway
I love Chris :)
ahhg im tired so ima go to bed now cuz didnt get much sleep last night..... hehehe
luv yah all
Chloe*Blue *l[i]l[b]l[u]e[b]a[b]i*
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hey there turds!! Miss me? yeah havent updated this in soo long but ill do my best to remember everything.
well i went to canada.. but i told u about that already.. then i came home and went right to the fair with Carmella and Purdizzle. Yeah the fair was fun.. but i had a not so nice visit with chris that night.. but it was a long time ago... so its all good now. Me and Carm met up wit Chels Gatzy< [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<sooo sexy!<winks>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] hey there turds!! Miss me? yeah havent updated this in soo long but ill do my best to remember everything.
well i went to canada.. but i told u about that already.. then i came home and went right to the fair with Carmella and Purdizzle. Yeah the fair was fun.. but i had a not so nice visit with chris that night.. but it was a long time ago... so its all good now. Me and Carm met up wit Chels Gatzy<<sooo sexy!<winks> and purdy went off somewhere with louie and Chris. so me carm and chels all chilled and went on this MAD funn ride.. but i felt drunk after i went on it cuz i could walk straight.. lol ANYWAY! so yeah that was the fair. fun stuff lemme tell ya..
THEN i went to CAMP! oh boy was that fun :)Got there at ten in the morning and 5 mins before me meaghan got there and the car right in front of me happend to be the turd septh.. jp jp luv ya! yeah we got our bunk all set up and we wanted it to be juz the 3 of us so we didnt let liz in.. lol sry hun. But then fucking we had to have four girls in there cuz there was too many of us and we had to have Dee.. lord did that suck balls. I would have taken Liz over her anyday!!! oh well theres always next yr. LOL so yea bobby annoyed the SHIT outta me and pretty much everyone there.. and i hit him a couple times just because he so gay and just his face pisses me off and i hate him.. lol i got in trouble for smaking him can u believe that??? i cant. lol WAYNE! hes the shit lemme tell you.. sittin in front of the crap house at night its the new hangout place right guys!! lol him rolling down the hill.. and singing u are my sunshine oh and the being the vioce of Ken in im a barbie girl.. lol hes fucking great. me and meaghan i guess.... talk in our sleep. I radomely asked steph where the broom went.. wen 1st of all there was no broom and 2nd of all it was dead silent and we werent talking about any brooms or cleaning or anything. and then meaghan told me and steph to fuck ourselves for no reason.. i guess she thot we were talking about her.. but the fact is no one was talking at all. lol so yeah me and meaghan got some problems.hmmm wat else happened at camp! OHHH i broke my ankle.. well no not really. but it was all swollen and shit. yeah that sucked. then i got thrown in the lake with all my clothes on AGAIN! fuckin counslers. lol Vic made me look up his nose to see if anything was there. just thot id tell yall that. Anyway. Mimi is a brat.. lol she was making fun of me cuz when we watched that movie for archery i was falling asleep and all week long she said i moved my head around in circles when i sleep... so she mocked me all week.. lol but its okay cuz at least i didnt cut myself with a plastic knife like she did. :) lol luv ya mimi. thats all im gonna write about camp.. theres a lot more but thats the important stuff.
Now im home!! woo. fist person i chilled JAIME LYN!! i love her. we went shopping and i got my gangsta pants.. cuz im sucha gangsta.. yeah oh and i got mew thongs and shit. lol tiffany thinks my brother is weird lookin. and the cat is gonna be her babys daddy!
Then i chilled with the DEFF PIMP PURDIZZLE! lol slept at his house again. Shexy Chel was with me and purdy was soo drunk off his ass he was being retarded. lol he was punching paulie and shit. and then he made my poor carmie cry fucking asshole! Chris was with us.. but then he got mad.. cuz i guess i was being mean to him when all i said was fuck you cuz i was pissed at him and me and chels messed up his plans or something. So chris left.. that was too bad. but thats okay cuz the next morning we TALKED! well no we actully wrote.. but then after we ran outta paper we talked. OH and then paulie called my house and told my dad i was sucking his dick.. OH MAN OH was i pissed. yeah so the next morning purdy jr brad paulie james and morgan went to hadley and me and chel couldnt go cuz there was no room in the car :( that made me sad. But chris was beggin us to go over to his house so we could talk sooo i was like ok watever. so we went there for like and hour or so and then we left and went to amandas. Then after that me and Chel went to her dads and waited for her mommy to come so we could go back to good ol bspa.
Yeeeup thats about it
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hey its friday.. that mean one more day in canada then i go home for a day and then im off to CaMp!!woo
I get to see Evan!Im very happy. i Love Him, hes my snookums hehe. Nobody knows Evan.. mmm he makes me happy!!
K anywho. canada is boring theres nuttin to do.. it makes me sad. my mommy took me to get and hair done and a pedicure cuz she knows how much i hate coming here. My cuzin is an annoying lil brat who gets everything he pleases grr if he was my lil brother id beat his ass. he pisses me off greatly.
Im coming home tomarrow and going to the fair with krissie dee and then i go to camp the next day for a week.
today im prolly gonna go to the beach and tan in the sun.. maybe my uncle will take me shoppin.. hmm that would be nice. then i get Speghetti and Meatballs for dinner WOOO.. thats wat im talking about.
Ugh cant wait till camp!
James i miss you :(
Evan :)
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k well today i woke up.. talked to someone who thot i was mad at him... i wasnt really mad.. just i donno. then went to go babysit my neighbor for the day... i gotta babysit her tomarrow and friday too. thursday i got off.. but i got stuff to do soo cant chill sry :/
yesterday however.. it was interesting. it was fun, confusin and unreal all at the same time. im not gonna say what i did or who i chilled with cuz all im gonna hear from everyone is shit. I donno it felt right and not right ...grr it was just weird.. i donno.
i donno.. anyway moving on. i still have feeling for the turd. (Chris) i guess it just takes time.. we arent fightin anymore.. i guess u can say we are "chill" until he does sumthing to piss me off again. then he hates me again. WaTeVeRRRR!!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! I am going to miss out on fair week!!!!! im soooooo upset :'( grrrrr.. unless i go stay with my moms friend. but i dont even kno if ill be able to go then cuz they both work and i would feel weird asking them to bring me anyway cuz they live in saratoga.. its either POSSIBLY fair week or Canada.. ughh i donno fair week comes around once and year and it my favorite time of year.. i go to canada ever christman and every summer. and it not the fun cuz i have a crazy aunt.. butttt my grammy is really old and it might be the last time i see her if i go to canada..and i love my grammy... :( i dont kno wat to do.. im only gonna stay if i kno for a fact i can go to fair week cuz im not staying here for nuttin. watever we will see wat happens..
didnt write that much sry..
comments on wat i should do!! cuz i donno!
Chloe*Blue
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heyyy havent updated this shiiit in quite a while.. so ill tell wat wats been up lately.
Well lets see thursday i went to the Great Escape with sanya, krissie, amanda, shane and chad.. even tho i wasnt supposed to go there for a a year.. lol oh well. I didnt get caught.. haha suckers! then we went back to sanyas and we are all BEAT so we all slept.. after we had OMAS PIZZA! mm that was good. then later kelli came over and we watched Bill Cosby.. lol hes a funny guy. then i stayed up with kelli and sanya and listen to them makes rapS!!!! all night long. yea no sleep..
friday i just chill cuz i was REALLY tired lol.. i went to bed at 7 pm and woke up the next more at 10.. lol yeah i crashed. not much happened friday
Saterday!!!!! haha THE BEST NIGHT OF MY FUCKING LIFE! carm came over and we were gonna set up a tent and sleep in there for the night.. buttt i didnt kno how and i was getting really pissed cuz the bugs were eating at my body and i didnt feel like satying outside anymore. so my mom was pissed.. cuz she didnt want anyone in the house... sooo me and carm went to Purdy's. yeah my mom didnt kno i was there.. she thinks i was sleepin at my friends whop live near purdy ... lol my mom is stuuupid. Yeah NEVER go into a car while Purdy is driving.. we almosted fucking died. lol he thot a cop was coming after him so he fucking floored it down the road and as we were turning he alomosted fucking drove the car into a telephone pole. And to top it off we had James Peer and some john kid in the car who werent allowed to be out of their houses past 8:00.. so they were flippin shit "omg im going to jail tonight.. lol its was fun. I had a fucking BAD headache and i was almosted passed out on james. let me tell u it was CRAZY! then we pulled into a trailer park and chilled and tried to hide from the cops.. luckily we lost them.lol but a car pull in and the guy thot it was the cops so they booked outta the car and went to hide in the woods.. while me and carm were sitting there in the fucking car like uuhhhh... but it wasnt the cops.. lol but peer broke his finger or sumthing and fell in the creek and purdy busted his knee up. lol ohh before that peer was on top of the car while purdy was driving.. and he almosted died... lol last night was fucking crazy. then me carm and purdy all went back to purdys house.. i wanted james to stay too but noo he had to go home with the john kid.. so yeah purdy deff owes me.. cuz while he was gettin action i was watchin bringing down the house.. lol Watever man last night was fucking awesome.. but the next time we do it.. purdy best have someone there for me! he knows who i want and he will get him.. lol cuz he luvs me soo much!
well im outta here!
Chloe*Blue
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Today was fun! lol i spent this lovely cold day with Manderz!! yeahh um wat did we do.. well chris wanted to "meet" amanda in the woods.. so i went with her.. just to see if he was there and if he was i was gonna ask where jake was at cuz i didnt really wanna chill with him.. lol but he wasnt there! So then we went back to mandas and got mikki dees! YUMMY! and then i got a hot fugde sunday.. which was pretty nastay. then we walked around outside again! woo! WE SAW JAKE! i was happy.. i missed jake.. he made me feel real dumb tho.. lol he does that alot. and then he made me fall over onto a bike.. ya that kinda hurt.. :( that turd! lol jp.. hes awesome! i got his 5 dollar sunglasses from him... and they looked better on me than they did on him. i gave them back tho cuz he like his sunglasses! then we left jakes.. and we walked towards chris' house.. ONLY CUZ I WANTED TO SEE MOM!
jake rode by on his lil bike and he was going to chris' so i told him ta tell ma that someone was outside waitin for her! she came out and i gave her a big old hug! i missed mom alot! yea so we just talked for like 20 mins and she said i best come and visit her while chris' ass was in summer school.. i was like HELL YEA! lol she told me about her dress she was gonna wear ta a weddin and wat her hubby had to say about it.. lol MEN dont kno wats up! I love mom sOoOoo much.. me and Sanyah are gonna go camping wit just her.. im tellin ya we are.. right sanyah?? yyyea u kno it girlie!
Anyway! JAIME MCKAY ROCKS! i love her.. we havent hung out we better real soon.. cuz me and jaimz got many many many mens... lol oh god.. HAHA! just thinkin bout them make me hafta piss myself.she knows wat im talking about! lol.. its summer.. and her pools one one those places where we make sum mems... lol those where the good old days babe! I LOVE U SOO MUCH! alrighty.. im outta here
leave me sum luv!!
Chloe*Blue
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Alrighty! Me and Chris are officially done! I dont need him be happy. Im never going back to him ever again! I'm over his ass and dont need him. I can find sooo much better! Its cool too cuz he blocked all of my sn's sooo i never have to talk to him again! EVER! woo! unless he unblocks me.. in which i just wont talk to him. Yea im soo fucking happy.. its great!
Yeah this summer is gonna be this ShIt! Ima be pimpin it with mad guys to let myself be seen! Don't get me wrong.. i wont be a slut and fuck all of them of course cuz im not like gay chris and will fuck anything i see.. which he does..its alright he'll get a girl pregnent or get a disease by the times hes 20.. lol. Its just that i have been sheltered to one guy for a half a year so i need to get out.. see whos out there.. and be living the life of a single girl! YEAH WOO! I already started making some plans with people.. either tomarrow or thurs im gonna hang out with mark.. and then tonight i think i might be hanging out with d-vid with miss carm and Jo Jo. im not sure thoo. Uhmm..oh i hope i keep chillen with sanyAh cuz i love her alot and shes soo awesome! And Dennine cuz i like the way she drives.. its fun! lol .. and also cuz she seems MAD cool! she luvs me cuz shes a hippie.. as sanyah would say. lol. OHHH ... Mr. Ackerman!!! my best buddie in the world.. I MISS HIM SO MUCH! i deff need to call him and see wats up cuz i miss him lots! maybe ill chill with him or sumthing cuz i wont see him cuz he moved outta the park.. ((tear tear)) yea deff gotta call him up.. give him a lil rinng riing! Oh all those girls who liked Chris .. uhhm you can have him hes all yours.. i dont gotta a problem with any of you anymore.. i kno how chris is now.. he prolly sweet talked all of you! and u fell for him. its aight i dont hold it against you ur just being a girl and falling for some assholes game. so if u want him u can have him... i give u permisson.. ill tell u one thing ur gonna get hurt.. I didnt listen to joelle when she warned me.. and ur prolly not gonna listen to me... so all i say is good luck.. be strong and i hope you dont fall in too deep so u cant get out. Im sry for ever being a bitch to any of you.. it was wrong i was only doing it cuz of chris. I didnt like u cuz of chris.. but ya kno what.. i dont like chris now so that mean i can like you.. Chicks come before dicks.. member that! Actully i miss adrienne.. so i think i might call her up and see wat shes up to tahday! well im outta here
Chloe*Blue
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okay.. well this journal is kinda just gonna be devoted to wats going on with my love life.
Alright im in love with Chris.but i need to move on, he really isnt worth all the pain he causes me. it not right to live my life crying for him. i woke up and started thinking about him and immediately started to cry and i have been crying ever since. now i understand why i shouldnt cry for him cuz hes not even considuring how i feel right now.. i really wanted to talk to him last night on the computer while louie was on but he couldnt bring himself to do it. he doesnt even wanna hear me out. then while im sitting at my computer for an hour trying to get ahold of him i read purdys away "going to luther's with garms and louie to meet brittany crystal and amanda" i broke down and cried for hours before i fell asleep. i gave this kid all of me and he knows that and he KNOWS how bad he can hurt me.. which he has. From all the times he cheated on me and then lied about it. I went back to him over and over. Of course i always belived chris when he told me he didnt cheat on me but i knew in the back of mind he actully did.My friends were constantly telling me chloe u dont need him.. u dont need to be hurt constantly like this.. u dont need to live ur life worrying wat chris will think. Hes gonna move on and never think about me again. He's telling everyone he dumped me.. before he tells me. As i write this im crying my eyes out.. i kno its not right to cry. i cant help it tho. i wasted 6 months of my life with someone who almost brought me to suicide. The first few months with chris he made me feel soo speacial and he made it seemed like he really loved me. He wrote me 3 page notes telling me how much i meant to him and how beautiful i was and how he never wanted to lose me. well thats all over.. he doesnt even tell me he loves me anymore. i used to call him every night and we used to talk for 3 4 hours... but now im lucky if i even get 15 minutes or i just dont talk to him. we havent hung out in like a week and a half where we used to hang out every weekend. i gave up everything for him. I know a lotta people has worse pain than me.. but theres alot of you who have no idea. i just wish i had been smart and listen to everyone. everyone said i was gonna end up being hurt if i dated Christopher Garmley. everyone was right. The sad thing about this whole thing.. is if me and chris end up making up ill go running back to him and act like hes never hurt me. I know i will. I love him soo much after everything.. and without him im miserable.. when i am with him im not to happy but at least i have him and it doesnt hurt so bad to have the feeling of emptiness and lonliness (of which i feel right now). Chris is prolly gonna read this and laugh. Thats how much he doesnt care. I wish i had a boyfriend who loved me and treated like his princess.. thats my dream.. cuz i havent had it yet. So if u wanna treat me like ur princess just tell me. Please..tell me i mean the world to you.. tell me im everything u wanted. tell me ur my man forever just like chris did.. and ill fall in love with you. well im out
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hey hey hey. alrighty so yesterday i went to the Great Escape with Sanyah and Candace. Yeah that was fun until me and Candace got kicked out for a year.. cuz he thot we were stealing shit.. lol it all good tho cuz im not gonna get in trouble cuz Chad is gonna call up and pretend to be my dad.. lol oh well. Alright then we came back to sanyas house and me Sanyah and Caandace chilled here for a while. Then Candace left and me and Sanyah were talking to people online.. Dennine was fighting with her boyfriend only cuz dennine was gonna cme over and chill with us. I guess shes not allowed to hang out friends or something... COOL! He sounds like an ass. While dennine and her boyfriend were fighting i was having a lovely fight with mine... yeah it was bad. I dont even wanna talk about what it was about cuz i will fucking hurl. he was saying shit like "Oh well at least she knows how to ride it" and "go die in a ditch" "i can do ten times better than you anyway" Yeah so that was GAY! watevvvver... but then it was cool cuz dennine came over and i was fighting with chris and sanya and dennine were bitching cuz i had to change so we could go out. so yeah we went to chels gatz party for like ten minutes and that was really gay so me sanya dennine jocelyn and jackie went to denney's cuz she was hungry. yea we all sit there and watch dennine eat food cuz she only had ten bucks and no one else had any money.. but she gave me two of her mazzerella sticks!WOOO. then we went back to the party cuz syana wantd to see shane and talk to him.. but when we got there.. they didnt really talk so me dennine and sanya ended up leaving and crashing here for the night. Dennine left at like 9:30 so now me and sanyah are just chillen here watchin some tv. But yeah i gotta go gt the card for great escape so chad can call. iM OuTtA HeRe!!
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wow i hate this..
im beginnin to not care about anything anymore. i got in another fight with my dad.. it was bad. he told me he didnt want to raise me anymore and he was sick of being my father. i agreed and said i would be glad to move out today no problem. my mom was on the assholes side so im fucking pissed both my parents are being fucking gay and i really cant stand my dad. i wish my mom would fucking leave him so i didnt have to deal with him anymore. i had enough of his shit. im really think about going to four winds so sumthing just so i can get away from him. i dont need him.. id be better off without him. i dont follow his rules and its hasnt fucked me up that bad yet. i just wanna get out of ballston spa and leave get a new life. My parents act like my life is so fucking perfect... well guess wat lemme tell you it aint no fairy tail. At least have of my friends stab me in the back. GOD IM SO PISSED OFF. no one fucking gets it. everybody thinks im lucky and got a great life. there are times when i dont feel like doinf anything and i just wanna lay in bed all day and think about how much i hate my life. My boyfriend is also REALLY starting to piss me off. hes allowed to blow me off and hang out with his friends whenever.. but the one time i actully make plans with friends and he wants to hang out he gets pissed off.. its not fair. i told him he needed to start being nicer to me and acting like my boyfriend.. which he did for a lil bit but now he gets mad over everything and is a fucking dick whenever i talk to him.. it sux. i try so hard.. but i always piss him off.. maybe it would be better if he just moved on cuz honestly he does NOT want this anymore and im not gonna be in a relationship when all hes doing is being an ass. he doesnt even try to hang out anymore... and whenever i got plans o SUDDENLY he wants to hang out after i say i have plans.. but no he couldnt have told me that before. I never hang out with my friends.. im always ditching them for chris.if ur reading this chris.. i think u need to really think about wat u want and just tell me cuz this whole thing with u getting pissed over everything is startin to get me...
yeah im complainin but wat else can i fucking do.. i dont have anything that good.. except maybe a few good friends... like 2 maybe? watever if u clicked my thing then obviously you wanted to read it. so FUCK U! sry im just so pissed off u dont even kno.
my summer hasnt had a very good start and its not looking to good from here.
watever im gone.. messages?
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K today i woke up at fucking 7 in the morning to go take a test at school. yeah thats cool! i took my math test at 8 and then i hung out at school.. walked back and forth to hess like 4 times cuz the people i was chillen with decided to be hungry at different times.. yea cool. Then me and amanda saw Jr. and started talking to him and he told us he would give me and amanda a ride at 2:30 and he would bring chris with him so i could see him so i was like WOO! Yeah so i was there chill at school for till like 12 until i had to go and take GAY bio regents. Yeah that SUCKED! we had 3 hours to take it yea.. i was done in like 45 mins.. lol i prolly failed.. oh well. yeah so i met up with amanda when we got out at like 2:15 chilled for a while then waited for Jr. who never fucking came. yeah we were pissed... we chilled there for like 20 mins until i was like fuck it im calling the ma dukes to come pick me up. Yea she picked me up n i kinda left manda there chillen... lol oops.
But yeah... maybe going up to great escape tomarrow wit SanyAh n Candace.. not sure tho.. ill have to see. other than that im chillen!
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Alrighty this is my journal... Cool right? well i hvae no idea whos reading this shiit so watever i dont care. My name is Chloe.. Chloe Blue yep thats me. um im 14 gonna be 15 in like 3 months. schools over so yeah im gonna be in 10th next year... i think. wat i look like.. well lets see.. i have brown hair and brown eyes.. nuttin amazing some people say im small for my size some peeps just say average. i really donno.. wat to say about my looks lol. I dont kno wat i look like. lol anyway. Family... well i absolutly cant stand my dad.. we do not cummincate in a reasonable manner. if hes got somthing to say to me he screams at me.. and i just ignore him most of the time. yeah relationship with my father... not god. My mommy.. i love her alot. we have our occasional fights here and there but i always feel really bad after i have a fight with her so we always make up which is good, i donno wat id do without my mom. Brothers... i got two of them.. both of the piss me off alot! but sometimes when they are in a really good mood they will take me out and let me do shit with them.. that happens rarely tho. they can both drive which is pretty cool.
Uhmmm.. wat else. friends! i got them.. few of them are true.. but a lot of em stab u in the back. I got like two really good guy friends that i can really talk to.. then i just dont talk to other guys. yea wanna kno about if i gotta boyfriend.. i do..his name..christopher. our relationship is kinda rocky tho.. right now i donno wat he wants.. hes kinda makin it seem like he wants nuttin to do with me... but i donno. we are trying not to fight so much.. cuz that was a deff problem.. we use to fight constantly.. but thats kinda stopped. we still have a few lil fights but nuttin big like before.. so thats good. we have been dating on and off for like 6 and a half months. he told my friend the other day he wanted to move on.. so yeah that deff sucked.. but now he says he doesnt want to anymore.. so who knows. thats pretty much wat i got for ya. im out
chloe*blue
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